where and how

i can't belive its already september.. same time last year I was 7 months pregnant and not talking to my parents at all.

Now I'm on the verge of my own child to be almost 10 months and my parents call everyday. It's a nice change of pace since last year.

So here I am abou to turn 24 and I don't know how I got to this age so fast. where did the time go?

I would have to say that im pretty proud of my situations of life right now: im a working nurse with motivation to get back to school ( down side: more bills to pay for my education ), Trip knows how to say"mama" and "da", James is sadly not with us 24/7 but its always nice when he comes around, and I purchased my very own safety mechanism Ruger SR9 9mm. yup gotta protect whats worth protecting.

I'm excited that its September because that means the holidays are coming. It's always nice to start with my birthday, then comes halloween, then thanksgiving then christmas then new years. so it's like the good times never stop. September means fun filled month (for me at least).

My gift request: and iPhone. I don't know why.. so don't ask. I'm fasinated (sp?) it's a great tool and I guess im pretty much bored during my lunch break. I usually read but my current reading is almost at an end and I have no idea what would be next on my list. With an iPhone i can just purchase my books for half the price and not have it collecting dust on my shelves. AT&T doesn't have such a great reputation when it comes to reception but I'll just wait to switch when verizon picks up the iPhone.

My marriage is better. thanks to employment. I had it all wrong. we miscommunicated and that led to ignorance with each other. it wasn't pleasant. but we had a talk and now things are much better. also because I have a job now.. it help.. thank goodness I was able to get a job in this economy... now i gotta work hard to keep my job ( which I really enjoy btw )

BIG THANKS to my cousins that flew over for my sons baptism. YOU GUYS ARE THE BEST!!! I couldn't ask for better relatives and I thank my parents and aunts for bringing us up so close that we not only love each other but we respect each other. I miss you guys.. CAN'T WAIT TO SEE YOU IN NOVEMBER!

thats right. im going to NY in november.. its more like a birthday present for my son. His FIRST birthday present and FIRST long plane ride. ( crossing fingers that everything will go well ). Im suuuper excited, to not only see my family, but for them to finally meet my son.

I've been going back and forth as to who my real friends are and I figured that people don't want to open up anymore. I don't know. So I think I'll stay pretty closed up as well. It's not really me. but I don't think they deserver all of me if they won't return the same. oh well i guess i can't be friends with everybody.

all in all.. my life is good. and I have been blessed. It doesn't matter who thinks of me a certain way or why im not kept in the loop. that's their choices to keep me out. I'm just content that my family is happy, healthy and safe. I can wake up now knowing that whatever happens, that day is a good day because I woke up.

well thats all for now.. until next time.. this is eevee out!

Happiest Place on Earth?

not really... not today

got up late due to the time difference

drove all the way to chino hills then to anaheim

waited in traffic just to get into the parking lot structure of Disneyland

overly packed amusement park... luckily had 2fer ticket so didn't need to stand in line

over all the lines weren't too bad

didn't see any other characters besides Mickey and Minnie (i guess thats good enough)

Hot, Cold, Hot, Cold weather.. I pray my baby does not get sick

Jazz kitchen over charged me and waiter tried to charge the whole party $240.00 when our bill only came out to $158.. tried to charge me $198 when my share was only $70

Couldn't buy my kid a birthday gift from the happiest place on earth because of the over charge

Traffic going home.. on a SUNDAY!!

not a good day.. not at all

random blog

while my husband and step son play Little big planet, and my child is sleeping, I have decided to write a random blog...

So I have recently been catching up with some old friends and have realized that life has dramatically changed for me in a way that I have taken for granted.. Most of my friends are still in school, some married, some not, others in a relationship, others not.. and its just weird looking back and wondering where and how it all went by so fast.. here I am with a child of my own and part of a beautiful family.. done with school for now but intending on going back.. I'm surprised and proud of my other friends that have pursued their nursing career right after finishing school with me... I should have done that.. but way too expensive..

back in the day... a good friend posted old high school pics and looking back I realized that I was truly privileged to have such great friends and good times.. I always thought that I was deprived from my high school life due to an over bearing father, but I really didn't. I may have missed the crazy parties and drunken nights but I got plenty of those during college.. I just miss the kick backs and laughing moments with friends. Making fun of each other and sharing secrets without being intoxicated was all I can really ask for...I'm sorry I left without a decent goodbye and I'm sorry I didn't really visit when I was in town. I felt like we drifted apart and that was partly my fault.. I was so ready to just leave I didn't realize what exactly I was leaving behind.. so thank you for all the great memories and I really hope and wish we can still make more..

As I lay in bed with my husband, the question that constantly comes up is.. are you happy? and are you still IN love with me? of course the answer is yes.. but you can't help wondering if the answer is going to change. I know that it may seem negative but its just a pre caution I guess.. but love is love and I wouldn't be here if I didn't believe in it... it took a lot of lies and drama to myself and some others to come to the conclusion that I wouldn't be pushing and fighting so hard and hating and loving this one person if I didn't want to be with him..so basically I love you sweetheart.

So here I am 23 yo and  mother.. I am loving every minute of it.. I must say at times it is a little over whelming only because there is some things that I just want to pick myself up and do but can't.. its not about me anymore.. its about TRIP. I have become so accustomed to his whining, cooing and crying that it doesn't bother me...; actually I get concerned if I don't hear baby noises for a long while.. but thats when he is resting and dreaming away.. he is absolutely adorable.. even when he came out of the womb he was the cutest thing.. Thank you god for a beautiful healthy child. The feeding, changing, bathing is so much fun but I get taken aback when I just step back and take a good look at him.. he's not as small as he used to be.. he is growing so fast, holding his head up, turning from his stomach to his back and grabbing everything.. its emotional to know that in such little time a new born is not necessarily a new born anymore...and I can't wait for all the great memories that are coming...I think I filled up my phone and camera with baby pictures, need to make room for the rest of his life.

Friends- well I don't really know where to start... Well I'll start by saying THANK YOU to those who still keep in touch with me and still support me after all these years. Thanks for not believing the stories that go around about me just so someone else can feel better about themselves. I would like to say that I played it off that I wasn't hurt about not getting invited to certain events but I lie. I do care. and I am hurt.. but i guess thats when the friendship ends.. when im not invited to a friends life changing or simple kick back event due to someone else not being comfortable.. i guess we really weren't friends in the first place.. im not considered a "homie" anymore and that really sucks.. it sucked when certain friends didn't show up to my baby shower when in the past I made every effort to show face and support to those I cared about...well if you don't want to be friends then just say it.. I don't want to be fake anymore... but props to those who didn't show up but still made and attempt to say thanks and show their support. Times change people and I can help that. I just wish it was how it was before... no uncomfortable situations.. no one avoiding each other and everyone just chill.. no craziness just happiness.. ahh the good ol' days.. basically what it comes down to is.. I MISS MY FRIENDS!

speaking of friends... BEST FRIEND.. what is there more to say than.. don't disappear on me! haha.. Thank you for your friendship and great times.. I wouldn't be the person that I am without you. Don't ever leave me and I will always be here for you.. im not kidding...i love you dearly.

Good bye Aquila.. I guess the west coast just wasn't your calling.. thanks for leaving your nephew.. JUST KIDDING...take care and pursue what you were meant and set out to do..

well thats all for now.. at least that is all I can really think about and my wrists and fingers are starting to hurt..haha..until next time.. this is EEVEE signing out. peace.

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A New Year Begins

well good bye 2008 and hello 2009.. I wonder what is in store for all of us this odd year..

recap of 2008:

-got married

-got pregnant

-went on my first "real" camping event

-Passed the NCLEX

-reconciled with my family

-gave birth to a beautiful baby boy TRIP ALTAIR

-happy

and my goals for 2009 is to be healthy, happy, and prosperous.. yeah yeah I know its generic but I really truly mean it.. there is nothing greater in life then the simple things... oh and I would like to be friends with those I have lost.. its always nice to have more friends..

TAKE CARE CUZ I CARE...haha..here we go another year!

LIFE